Tiff's Turn

I will have an update on the triplets tomorrow, but for now I want to share on the subject of infertility since as of today it's National Infertility Awareness Week. To do my part to help raise awareness on the struggle disease, I would like to share our story. Back in 2009, Levi and I were young, energetic and excited to get married and start a family. I knew I wanted about two kids and Levi had told me he wanted "a lot of kids", whatever that meant at the time. (I don't think he meant a total of five! :)  ) Silly me was assuming I would be pregnant right after our honeymoon. Months and months went by and I became discouraged and depressed at the thought of not having children with the man of my dreams. I knew I wasn't going to give up, though. We would figure this out. Friends, family and acquaintances would ask us when we would children of our own. There's no easy way to answer that while struggling with infertility. After about a year of b...

I would like to take the time today to make an announcement.                                          No, we're not pregnant. But... A couple of months ago, Levi and I learned that IVF (In Vitro Fertilization) is now covered on his insurance. We decided to jump and and go through round 2! I have already had some blood work done to test hormone levels, etc. and everything came back great. I also have started birth control pills. (I know- the irony of an infertile person having to go on the pill...) The birth control will help stabilize all of my hormones until it's time for the next phase: shots. Lots and lots of shots. My calendar is set and I have many appointments scheduled with the doctor. We are ecstatic. Besides being busy planning out this exciting and insane adventure, Aria and I have been trying all kinds of new foods, (She loves ravioli.) and acc...

Yesterday I mentioned that Levi and I shared our "What God Has Done in Our Lives" testimony in Bible study.  I was pretty sure I would be able to get through the testimony without crying, but another couple brought their newborn and shared that they named the baby after a fellow church member who was there to help them in a time of need. This made me feel the waterworks building before we addressed the class. Once we took the podium, the tears began to fall when I started to speak. I didn't think I'd be able to do it. Levi saved the day with starting off our story. That gave me a minute to compose myself and carry out what I wanted to say. I am blessed beyond measure. My cup runneth over. I want to gush about the miraculous baby growing inside me, but the doubt I had in God needs to be admitted first. It's hard for me to see that in black and white. I doubted God. The Mercy Me song, "You Are I Am" sums up some of the feelings I had at one point of ...